I Should Have Cheated

First of all let me say

You can't accuse me of all the things

You know that you are guilty of

And I see that it is easy for you to blame

Everything on me

If that's the case I should go have my fun

Do all the things you say I do

Boy I can't continue to take this from you

I might as well have cheated on you

As much as you accused me of cheating

I might as well have lied to you

As much as you accused me of lying

I might as well have gone to the club

As much as you accused me of clubbin'

I might as well have threw away my love

As much as you accused me

I should have cheated

Let me say I was out with somebody else

When my girl told me she saw you with some girl

(Some girl)

But I didn't accuse you of something that I didn't see myself

Realize that I would never do anything to disrespect you

Trust me, you gotta stop accusing me

I might as well have cheated on you

As much as you accused me of cheating

I might as well have lied to you

As much as you accused me of lying

I might as well have gone to the club

As much as you accused me of clubbin'

I might as well have threw away my love

As much as you accused me

Don't you know I wish I knew

That you would treat me this way

If you don't promise me

That you've changed your ways I'm leaving today

And I ain't coming back

And you made it like that

Was unfair to me

All this jealousy

I'm your everything

What will you do without me

Why you tripping?

I might as well have cheated on you

As much as you accused me of cheating

I might as well have lied to you

As much as you accused me of lying

I might as well have gone to the club

As much as you accused me of clubbin'

I might as well have threw away my love

As much as you accused me

I should have cheated

I should have lied

I should have cheated

Maybe I should have went out to the club

Or maybe I, should have done it

Should have given away all my love

Or maybe I, I should have played you

'Cause you don't appreciate me, no

And I tried to stay down with you

But you're making it hard for me

I might as well have cheated on you

As much as you accused me of cheating

I might as well have lied to you

As much as you accused me of lying

I might as well have gone to the club

As much as you accused me of clubbin'

I might as well have threw away my love

As much as you accused me

I should have cheated

As much as you accused me of cheating

I should have cheated

As much as you accused me of lying

As much as you accused me of clubbin'

As much as you accused me of cheating

I should have cheated

I should have cheated

Funny how.....

Funny how my post used to be about how excited I was to see you and all the love I felt.

Now it's the opposite.......

Funny how my post are now of betrayal, sadness, lies, loneliness, and heartbreak.

How time changes!!!

My Heart

Sometimes I wonder why I gave you my heart. Why did I give you the opportunity to hurt me. Do you not see how bad it brings me down? I just wonder why did this ever start? I love you and you knew that, but that didn't affect you at all. I have so much space in my heart for you, yet you make it seem so small.

I sit here and look at you and wonder, why? 

Why does it always seem like i'm not enough. Yes I get it i'm not as exciting as I once was. The problem is things changed. I cant be who I once was, I just cant! 

Why you ask? and I know you are.

Because would you be the same person if you found out that everything you did to me was the same things I did to you? 

Would you still see me the same? Would you still love me the same? Would you still desire me the same? Ask yourself all these questions.  

Imagine if I was following all these men, imagine if I was looking at pictures of half naked me, or looking at naked men on the internet. How would that make you feel.

The problem is i'm not enough, if I don't give you what you want you go and betray me and find it somewhere else. That's not what a relationship is, but most importantly that's not what marriage is.

If I really wanted to I could do it too. I have so many guys still after me. I could easily message one of them and say hey lets go out. But I'll NEVER do that. Why? Because i have enough respect for you and our marriage that I don't need to, but it seems like you don't.

You don't see anything wrong with it, but you have no idea how much damage you are really doing.
I'm not going yo be married to a person who doesn't know how to respect their partner. Especially after they have given them a child. Like I've said don't be surprised if one day you come home and we are no longer here.

I've given you multiple of chances, that maybe I shouldn't have given you. But one can only give so much until they say enough is enough.

Killing Me Softly

Strumming my pain with his fingers

Singing my life with his words

Killing me softly with his song

Killing me softly with his song

Telling my whole life with his words

Killing me softly with his song

I heard he sang a good song, I heard he had a style

And so I came to see him, to listen for a while

And there he was, this young boy, a stranger to my eyes

Strumming my pain with his fingers

Singing my life with his words

Killing me softly with his song

Killing me softly with his song

Telling my whole life with his words

Killing me softly with his song

I felt all flushed with fever, embarrassed by the crowd

I felt he'd found my letters and read each one out loud

I prayed that he would finish, but he just kept right on

Strumming my pain with his fingers

Singing my life with his words

Killing me softly with his song

Killing me softly with his song

Telling my whole life with his words

Killing me softly

Strumming my pain with his fingers

Singing my life with his words

Killing me softly with his song

Killing me softly with his song

Telling my whole life with his words

Killing me softly, with his words