Okay well who I am? I'm a girl who has so many things wrong with her it's not even funny. I'm nice, funny, & outgoing, but I can also be really mean and harsh. Why because I found out life is an asshole! I'm a 17 year old girl who suffers from depression, anxiety, insomnia, eating disorder, & now adding to my list I have high cholesterol and I have spleen problems & I have the highest chance of getting a heart disease or even a heart attack. Yup I'm only 17 !! I'm going through a very tough situation right now, my parents are unbearable they have been driving me insane especially my mom!!! :( I'm so behind in school because I've been gone a lot. Yup I've been stuck in the hospital! College is coming up and I honestly don't know where I wanna go and my family is putting so much pressure on me I can't take it.. My brother has told me to move in with him in South Dakota .. & honestly I'm actually thinking about that! I fall for guys too fast & wayyy to easily & I honestly really hate it! But we can say I'm doing a little better than I was before! I was out of control... I'm actually surprised I'm still alive and not somewhere else. I was a horrible person & deep down I still think I am. I went through so much shit & cried too many damn tears!!! I was fucked over by the person I loved , I was hurt emotionally, mentally, & physically ... Yup I was in an abusive relationship & honest I don't know why I put up with that but back then I was a little bitch who was too afraid to say or do anything. I got into doing drugs and drinking .. I started cutting I still have scars but I'll never show you ! So I mean I've been clean for while which is good right ?!?! Honestly I just wanna go to college and move out and be on my own & do what I want.. I need space! I wanna meet someone who is gonna take me for who I am.. I am a tough person because I go through tough things and times.. Sometimes I don't wanna talk to anyone and sometimes I need you to listen. I wanna get a degree in the career field I love and start living life like I want it not like my parents want... I thought it was time you guys knew the truth !! Emails are welcomed .. Questions too !!
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